I'm Fine

I’m fine, is one of the biggest lies I tell

I lie, hide everything, even when I’m going through hell,

When my pain is being shown, the whole world, ignores people, like me

They act like, they are blinded, saying, there was nothing they could see

Why can't you understand, that saying, I’m fine, isn’t being fine

I can’t help it, when my soul cries out for help, time to time,

I always struggle, paying the bills and the rent

When times get tough, I always try, to pray, as the money, is being spent

Why can't you understand, that saying, I’m good, isn’t being good

I'm spiraling out of control, as I will never get the help, that I should,

I was taught that pain, and suffering, is just part, of being human

No one really cares, to find a solution, as they say, pain is just an illusion, its been proven

Why can't you understand, that saying, you wouldn’t understand, really means, you wouldn’t care

I know very well, after I have opened up to you, I can see that, judgmental stare,

I might be on the ledge of, nothing else matters, I don’t care anymore

I understand that my emotions, and the pain, doesn’t stop, even after, I have walked out that door

I can feel the pain, the poison, the sickness, that wants to put me, six feet under

If my family, can’t see my pain now, how will they care, sitting at my funeral, I wonder,

I know, I’m not the only one, that feels this way

It’s not what I say, it’s what I can provide, that has them, ignore me and stay