There For Me

Tell me you're still there for me (yeah) Tell me you're still there for me (will you be there?) Tell me you're still there for me (do you really understand?) For me Tell me you're still there for me (please) Tell me you're still there for me (I gotta know) Tell me you're still there for me (I need your help) For me (listen, please) Seeking reassurance I'm unsure if they feel the same behind the curtains Will something surface? They say it's fine, but I'm nervous, uncertain I need the truth, it's very urgent, I'm done hurting (done) Even when they say it's cool, I don't find joy I start to ponder all the people I might've annoyed By constantly questioning everything, caught in a void Thinking 'bout relationships that I'll probably destroy Yeah, I'm tryna the calm the distress But I ruminate 'til I ain't got no confidence left All this doubt, living in fear is why I'm often depressed Always tryna stay in control 'til I'm caught in a wreck I can't avoid, guess I'm tryna protect my own ego Will they perceive me as the failure or the hero? Will I be alone or would they wanna keep close? Will they misconstrue good intentions with evil? Damn, suspense killing me slowly No sleep, Klonopin saving me from my own grief Tryna be that special person that they don't need Left my bullies in the past yet there's no peace Feel like torture every second that I proceed Into the future, still wrestling with the old me Hope leaves as soon as I get a cold sleeve Aiming for perfection, I can't find it in my own dreams One slip of the tongue and now I'm panicking Wishing I could turn the minute hand back again Trapped within my own thoughts and it's challenging To believe they'll put up with the demons I've been battling Tryna mimic the remarks of the champions Replaying conversations in my head that haven't happened yet Tied to the trauma I just can't forget Reassurance is the only thing to help me panic less And even when it's there, it's never enough Even though they care, I never can trust Am I burden that they're scared to ever discuss? Wonder if the struggles that I share are met with disgust Yeah, contemplating on the daily Waiting on time to save me 'Cause I'm going kinda crazy with no sign of changing My hopes still remain inside the hell I've been caged in They can't help me escape it Only I (I) I see it all on they faces (faces) Their words never bring me to complacence (never) As soon as I'm awake there's hesitation How can I face the fear when I avoid confrontation? How? Tell me you're still there for me (tryna put the pieces together) Tell me you're still there for me (I need your help) Tell me you're still there for me ('cause I just fall apart) For me (I'm left with more fragments than I started with) Tell me you're still there for me (will you be there?) Tell me you're still there for me (through the highs and the lows) Tell me you're still there for me (what have I done?) For me Tell me you're still there for me Tell me you're still there for me Tell me you're still there for me For me