Deep End

I've been trying not to go off the deep end I don't think you oughta give me a reason I've been trying not to go off the deep end I don't think you oughta give me a reason I've been trying not to I still wonder how a moment in time could feel like forever The present just fades and everything's frozen I'm just tryna hold it together I keep having these visions of what could go wrong Don't know how to hope for the better It's hard to cope with the pressure I feel like I'm drowning the moment I get up I struggle to stay interactive with people Afraid that they'll leave in the end Running through thoughts in my head Tired of the feeling of constant regret I feel like I'm caught in a web, lost in distress Wondering how I'll get out of this mess Man, I got a lot on my chest I've been trying not to go off the deep end I don't think you oughta give me a reason I've been trying not to go off the deep end I don't think you oughta give me a reason I've been trying not to go off the deep end I don't think you oughta give me a reason I've been trying not to go off the deep end I don't think you oughta give me a reason I've been trying not to I'm running out of solutions Afraid of the future if I cannot choose it It's hard to escape the illusion Of having control 'til the moment you lose it I wake up to constant confusion Most of my thoughts are intrusive I know that she love me But I can get lost in the thought of the day that I'll lose her Medicated very often Still calculating every option Can't change the future regardless But I'll keep on trying my hardest I can't run from these nightmares where every memory is constant Don't think I'll ever get beyond this I've been trying not to go off the deep end I don't think you oughta give me a reason I've been trying not to go off the deep end I don't think you oughta give me a reason I've been trying not to go off the deep end I don't think you oughta give me a reason I've been trying not to go off the deep end I don't think you oughta give me a reason I've been trying not to Don't know how to cope with the trauma What if they leave me alone at the bottom? What if I lose everything I've accomplished? My life is improving, but peace isn't promised I feel like I need to be honest I feel like I'll slip and they won't see beyond it Feel like my tongue's getting rolled up and knotted I can't find my words, man, there's so many problems I can't help the obsession I play the same movie inside of my head I can change how it ends I don't wanna accept anything unexpected and fall to regret Every thought is a threat, I'm constantly stressed Planning for struggle, preparing for death Can't focus on living Each second is frightening when you cannot see or prepare for the next I've been trying not to go off the deep end I don't think you oughta give me a reason I've been trying not to go off the deep end I don't think you oughta give me a reason I've been trying not to go off the deep end I don't think you oughta give me a reason I've been trying not to go off the deep end I don't think you oughta give me a reason I've been trying not to go off the deep end I don't think you oughta give me a reason