i want(ed) To Die

I lost a battle with myself

I hide my feelings on a shelf

My mum tells me I need some help

Then send me help

See, I lost this battle with myself

These feelings I have never felt

They tell me that I need some help

Well, I need some help

Fuck protection, I don't need a vest

'Cause the pain's trapped in my chest

How to heal, it don't make sense

I can't lie, yeah, the devil now my only friend

Step inside, it's a real mess

I can't lie, I must confess

Fuck the fame and the money, I don't need checks

I'm just doing this for my fam, all I need's rest

Oh, it's time to die, I'm sorry, but mom, don't you cry

The light in my soul's so hard to find

So please let me rest alone tonight

I lost a battle with myself

I hide my feelings on a shelf

My mum tells me I need some help

Then send me help

See, I lost this battle with myself

These feelings I have never felt

They tell me that I need some help

Well, I need some help

Alone tonight, be left beside

There's no more light on a holy night

My soul has left my body

The vengeance inside me keeps growing

I lost a battle with myself, I hide my feelings on a shelf

The vengeance inside me keeps growing

My mum tells me I need some help, then send me help

See, I lost this battle with myself, these feelings I have never felt

The vengeance inside me keeps growing

They tell me that I need some help, well, I need some help

I lost a battle with myself

I hide my feelings on a shelf

My mum tells me I need some help

Then send me help

See, I lost this battle with myself

These feelings I have never felt

They're saying that I need some help

Well, I need some help