Hope

I could write my life's story, they still won't understand The greatest enemy I have is the one in my head 'Cause after everything I've gotten I still wannabe dead I still haven't found a way to cope with all my regrets No one talks about the stress that comes along with success And no one cares about your problems when they think that you're blessed Yeah I got bread but my life is a mess And I don't even need a hand to go and count all my friends I guess that everything that counts wasn't part of the plan I tried to put my people on and then got stabbed in the back And it hurts way more when you knew in advance But you ignored the red flags just to give it a chance And I don't think that I could trust again They say that ignorance is bliss There isn't much I wouldn't give if I could only make a wish I wish that I could just be young again Pray to have some fun again Pray to wake up one day without wanting every day to end Wake up from a nightmare My demons never fight fair No matter where I run it always seems like they're right there I just want a way out I just want a day where I can say it's all okay now I've been trynna change how I look at life And all the thoughts inside my head that keep me up at night I say I'm good when I'm not good but imma be alright 'Cause when you learn to live in darkness you don't need the light And I don't need the light I put my life onto the page and hopin' that someone feels the same All these thoughts inside my brain, always driving me insane But a life without some pain And a life that's just in vain 'Cause the struggle made me stronger and appreciate my days After everything I've gotten, guess I really can't complain 'Cause you learn to love the sun when you constantly in rain And so I keep it moving even when the skies are grey 'Cause as long as I'm still breathing I know imma be okay