Solar Eclipse

Feel it every night Nothing is alright I just wanna die I'm losing this fight Feel it every night Nothing is alright I just wanna die I'm losing this fight Gamble with my life as I throw in my chips She closes her eyes while I'm holding her hips Not sure if this is right but I'm hoping it is My lights gone dark it's a solar eclipse Gamble with my life as I throw in my chips She closes her eyes while I'm holding her hips Not sure if this is right but I'm hoping it is My lights gone dark it's a solar eclipse Feel it every day but the pain don't go away Stays in my brain so I pray and I hope for change Try to explain but they say you're okay though man I can't be okay when these chains hold my like a slave I'm a slave to my guilt I'm slave to my stress I'm a slave to the weight putting pressure on my chest I'm a slave to the grind I'm a slave to my mind I'm a slave to time like I'm never gonna rest Other times I feel that I rest too much Like I'm a fail if I don't get stuff done Gotta be productive to measure up To my own standards to get better yuh But am I getting better 'cause I feel worse I backtrack back yeah living in reverse 'Bout to drop the world like this Rebirth But not on your head I mean leave Earth Gamble with my life as I throw in my chips She closes her eyes while I'm holding her hips Not sure if this is right but I'm hoping it is My lights gone dark it's a solar eclipse Gamble with my life as I throw in my chips She closes her eyes while I'm holding her hips Not sure if this is right but I'm hoping it is My lights gone dark it's a solar eclipse The darkness creeps and I feel beat I cannot sleep when do I dream Honestly I want to scream But if I do they'll know it's me I don't want them to know that I struggle though The pain I cannot show I'm tryna be humble yo Wonder if they find out will they love me or Will they just clown me and say your troubled bro I mean I am but not like that I can't describe when I get mad The anger comes out but really I'm sad You'll never understand why I write these raps So I'll just laugh and hold it back And act like I never wrote this track But when I'm alone where no one's at It's a solar eclipse 'cause the sun goes black Gamble with my life as I throw in my chips She closes her eyes while I'm holding her hips Not sure if this is right but I'm hoping it is My lights gone dark it's a solar eclipse Feel it every night Nothing is alright I just wanna die I'm losing this fight Feel it every night Nothing is alright I just wanna die I'm losing this fight