Array of Light

As I record my growing pains I don't wanna be caught eating paint I used to think I only had two states Forcibly yellow or a default grey You said we don't need money to have a good time While smoking cigarettes you found in an ashtray You said, "Don't worry 'bout tomorrow" 3 a.m., coffee from a sachet We'll burn those bridges when we come to it We'll sew our stiches when the bass drum hits And I know you're filled with an emptiness So are the speakers before the bassline kicks Just feel it move through you I used to think I only had two states Forcibly yellow or a default grey But I open my eyes to signs of life Outside the binary, a fine array of light Well, I know that ache in your bones But in the dirt with the insects, we are never alone Yeah, our days consist of avoiding being stepped on But all the earth is our home So hey, it's okay, welcome to the family A patchwork tuxedo I used to think I only had two states Forcibly yellow or a default grey But I open my eyes to signs of life Outside the binary, a fine array of light Trapped outside kaleidoscope Cope without ropes around your sounding throat My weekends used to consist of loosening nooses But the truth is you're stronger than you think So cut through me, a library of flawed parts A thin cry starts But truly I carry your heart in my heart A quiet sonnet that posits melancholic suggestion But from it we saw its symphonic resurrection Let the children to sleep now, listening to MOBO on loud sound Emitting from a house that may never be a home You used to think you only had two states Forcibly yellow or a default grey But you opened your eyes to signs of life Outside the binary, a fine array of light We used to think we only had two states Forcibly yellow or a default grey But we opened our eyes to signs of life Outside the binary, a fine array of light