Whatever You Want Me to Be.

\"You\'ve failed\" are words I don\'t only hear in a game

\"Failure\" is a title I have proclaimed

I always try to keep my head up despite the misery

People tell me I\'ve gone through much, but that\'s something others don\'t see

And look I know I haven\'t been the greatest kid

But it hurts to see no one sees my side of it

Is it weird that I\'m already going insane?

I thought I had grown, but others don\'t see the same

You should be proud of me

I just want you to see that I\'ve grown and I have problems too

Even tho there were fucked up times I\'m still here with you

Cause I want you to understand, I need you to understand

That I might not wanna be here at the end of the day

I saw you crying and I came to you

I\'ve listened to too much stories of the both of you

Your laughter takes me back and makes me never wanna talk

Do you even remember it, you know what I know you don\'t

 

Multiple people tell me I am kind,

That\'s something positive but why can\'t that be my state of mind

You say lost trust in me, but did you ever trust me

Or was that when I was below fourteen

You should be proud of me

I just want you to see that I\'ve grown and I have problems too

Even tho there were fucked up times I\'m still here with you

Cause I want you to understand, I need you to understand

That I might not wanna be here at the end

I need you to understand

That I have gone through pretty much but always...

Ignored it, cause I don\'t want you to worry or be

Bothered by it, cause I am handful and you got your own problems too

I am here for you but are you here for me too...

I\'m aware I can\'t be your center of attention

I\'m aware that I can get even better

The shadows in my head might wanna take over

But there can\'t be shadows without light and that\'s what I go for

And I know I\'ve dissapointed you too much

But I\'m really trying to get better, but not in a rush

And I just want you to see, that I am here for you,

a boy, a friend, a son, an enemy, or whatever you want me to be.