Diary Of A Trying Man

I keep tryna move on, I GPS all my thoughts But they lead me to places that gon' hurt me inside I've been tryna stay strong but when the memories spawn I gotta chase 'em with whiskey 'cause they run on my mind Can't turn the radio on because they only play songs That take me back to those days and all those late-night drives When you'd lay on my arm, tell me what I do wrong And I would look in your face and say, "But girl I try" I'll try, I tried, I tried to be the man that you wanted, but I couldn't provide 21, I was young, dumb, livin', chasin' dreams Tryna go from a boy to a man I gave my heart to a pretty little demon who was askin' for the world and a Disney romance She valued money, not the substance that I had I was buildin' for the future, but she couldn't understand That a diamond only shines overtime under pressure that's applied from my disciplined hand She let me go then she moved away Said she could do better, and I was a man she could replace Said I wasn't worth it and the memories that we had made was just wrong time Wrong place and all a mistake I keep tryna move on, I GPS all my thoughts (I keep tryna move on, girl) But they lead me to places that gon' hurt me inside I've been tryna stay strong but when the memories spawn I gotta chase 'em with whiskey 'cause they run on my mind Can't turn the radio on because they only play songs (can't turn the radio on) That take me back to those days and all those late-night drives When you'd lay on my arm, tell me what I do wrong And I would look in your face and say, "But girl I try" (I try) I'll try (I'll try), I tried (I tried), I tried to be the man that you wanted, but I couldn't provide Now I'm movin' at a different pace Don't blame me for movin' on because you couldn't wait You left to find yourself and found out what we had was great Our cities way too small to act like we ain't never date (never date) And now you're bangin' on my line, I ain't callin' you back You used to race all on my mind, now my life's on track You ain't gon' waste no more of my time, 'cause I'm not that man You knew from the past that gave you a chance You used to think that it was all a game Lookin' back girl, I think that I'm the one to blame I'm settin' boundaries, I'm not the same Don't call 'cause I blocked you on everything And if I ever come across your mind I hope you think about those late-night drives And tell yourself I didn't deserve those lies Those words, those fights, I tried, I tried I keep tryna move on, I GPS all my thoughts (I keep tryna move on, girl) But they lead me to places that gon' hurt me inside I've been tryna stay strong but when the memories spawn I gotta chase 'em with whiskey 'cause they run on my mind Can't turn the radio on because they only play songs (can't turn the radio) That take me back to those days and all those late-night drives When you'd lay on my arm, tell me what I do wrong And I would look in your face and say, "But girl I try" (I try) I'll try (I'll try), I tried (I tried), I tried to be the man that you wanted, but I couldn't provide