Lonely Dirt Road

When I need space, that's where I go A place to escape that nobody knows Where I feel free to let things go And face this evil that burdens my soul I bring my hatred, I pack my pain All the emotions I cannot explain It's where I found God and filled that hole It's he, myself, and I on that lonely dirt road I needed somewhere to take my mistakes I didn't want my family to see me cry They'll never know I'm carrying all of this weight Dealing with the pressure of trying to provide No sign of struggle can show on my face They ask if I'm okay, I just flash them a smile Fire up that engine to take me away I'm speeding through emotions with every mile On that road is where I find my peace I remember daddy told me 'bout sometimes like these On that road is where my mind's at ease I keep driving life away, rejecting change, so When I need space, that's where I go A place to escape that nobody knows Where I feel free to let things go And face this evil that burdens my soul I bring my hatred, I pack my pain All the emotions I cannot explain It's where I found God and filled that hole It's he, myself, and I on that lonely dirt road I tried my best to plant the seeds and then I watered everything that was in my life But as a man, the only flowers that you get are When you're six feet under on the day you die I think I feel the pain my father felt, it's finally sinking in Looking back, all I see is his eyes He said that house is not a home unless you build it On respect with some kids and a loving wife If these walls could talk, I bet they'd say it's all my fault That I don't try hard That I ain't man enough, that I ain't standing up That I just burn everything that my hands touch, oh If these walls could talk, I bet they'd say I'm to blame That I'm the one who put myself inside of all of these chains That my addictive personality's what ran them away And that I hurt myself by staying quiet and not explaining I'm broken in places I can't even see I know there's gotta be a heaven 'cause the hell that's in me Is taking a dangerous toll, that I'm paying with all of my soul When I need space, that's where I go A place to escape that nobody knows Where I feel free to let things go And face this evil that burdens my soul I bring my hatred, I pack my pain All the emotions I cannot explain It's where I found God and filled that hole It's he, myself, and I on that lonely dirt road