If I Only Had

I've been gone for so long now chasing everything that's new I've forgotten how I got here I've not forgotten you we were just children but our eyes opened and you were all that I could see you came close enough to know my heartbeat but still not close enough for me through the good times and the bad you were the best I've never had the only chance I wish I had to take there was no writing on the wall no hole inside to fall on I know that I just can't forget you're the best I never had