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Can you see me above

Walking these streets below

And do you see the things that comfort me

But are killing me off slow

Punching myself awake

Tire myself to sleep

But there's only so much time

That I can hide under the sheets

Now there's no drink and there ain't no drugs

My friends love me but it's not enough

And my heart's torn out but my head's still up

And they're calling me the lucky one

And I guess I'm jealous

That you made it out

Cause now I'm left with memories

You traded for an ounce

And now I wander

Through an empty house

Some nights I swear I hear the carousels

That lit your face

All those summers

Tucked away

In golden suburbs

Long before the monsters got you down

And I guess I'm just jealous

I guess I'm just jealous

Walked with you through the trees

A paradise of debris

Where the sun paints amber golden

On our faces through the leaves

While we're burning toys with aerosol

Our ceilings filled with alcohol

Our carpets soaked with midnight rain

Listening for the New York trains

Now there's no drink and there ain't no drugs

My friends love me but it's not enough

And my heart's torn out but my head's still up

And they're calling me the lucky one

And I guess I'm jealous

That you made it out

Cause now I'm left with memories

You traded for an ounce

And now I wander

Through an empty house

At night I swear I hear the carousels

That lit your face

All those summers

Tucked away

In golden suburbs

Long before your fire faded out

And I guess I'm jealous

I guess I'm just jealous