I drink my coffee black
So I can't taste the sweetness I lack
I lose myself for days, maybe months, I should rephrase
I've grown up a million times
Living on my own, nowhere's home
I mess up everything
I never answer when my phone rings
I wish I could get back the nights I don't remember
I wish I could go back to the month of December
Things were simple, I was able to feel
My heart wasn't broken
So now I'm just hoping it heals
I'm so scared of aging
The days feel long but time is fading
I can't cry in the shower
I think the water flow makes it lose its power
I won't wear your jacket home
I way too used to being alone
I never win, but I come close
That's why I reach for another dose
I wish I could get back the nights I don't remember
I wish I could go back to the month of December
Things were simple, I was able to feel
My heart wasn't broken
So now I'm just hoping it heals
