Lonely as I ever known
Things been getting better though
Should've grown
Into the throne that I was shown
But couldn't let it go
Say it ain't so
Not even safe inside the home
I buried everyone I known
Gone cold to the things I can't control
Everyday been the same
Anxiety been gettin old
But got a hold everywhere I fuckin go
Everywhere I fuckin go
This ain't a place I wanna bring you
Hold me while I breathe in
Faces all been see through
I been up to nothing new
Nothing in my reason
I might pop a few
Just to feel nothing for a season
Long live the memories
Months go by like centuries
Drain me of this energy
Couldn't be a friend of me
I'm the only enemy
Speakin on it carefully
You ain't really know me bitch
I say that respectfully
Missing old ways terribly
My own mental scared of me
Screamin through it endlessly
Least I got some time to sleep
Only time they leave me be
Only time they leave me be
This ain't for a weak
But I don't think it's built for me
Been years I should've peaked
Personal critique
Deaded all my self esteem
I'm gettin used to the fatigue
Don't even speak
Unless you got the antidote inside ya teeth
I been at it all my life
Lookin like I never tried
Couldn't bring me peace of mind
Wondering why they let me die
Scared of everything I hide
Hate the way I been inside
Swear I wanted better times
Guess they on the other side
Guess they on the other side
Guess they on the other side
I hope you never feel this pain
I'm glad I'll never be the same
It ain't you that's been the blame
I'm the only reason shit don't ever change
