Fear and Progress

Fear and progress, peas in a pod

You **** needed a god to move, I just needed to start

Had to maneuver the clock different

The way time flying, it's seeming like Pops missing

**** get popped daily, it's making me talk different

Like ain't no more probably, I died if I'm not winning

I'm living where beer swallowed

Instead of hard pills whenever she feel hollow

The lower the day determine how high I go

Whether it's blunt wraps or Super Saiyan rules followed

I know Ima have them stormy nights

Working on independence, still searching for more advice

A gory mind

Real **** shit? I'm still ignorant

I was only 5 seeing war waged in my home

I was only 9 feeling more pain for my growth

I was looking high, prayed the lord came to console

14, more came from my dome

More statements, more flavor

More anger, more hatred, more changes

Struggling to keep up, my knees high, my core flaming

I seen a torch blazing inside

Failing at trying to find a way I could escape from my mind

Praying I died

Blessed to say that I'm out of that state of mind

Low points too often to quit trying

But when you need a second and they telling you quit crying

You either quit crying or blow up and hit eyes

I was in limbo

Swaying between options, environments

All that laughing and smiling seem to come and it go

I struggled to feel something. I was running from home

Trying to see if real love was still something they sold

And I found it

Okay I was young but you **** get what I'm saying bout it

Seeing some sort of balance in life during my down days

Really made me power through strife. I truly found rays

Beaming down, was drowning in light and playing with sound waves

Frowns faded, couldn't grow myself without pain

Without loss, without anxiety surrounding

You got to live in your sadness to truly find a way out it

Fear and progress, peas in a pod

You **** needed a god to move, I just needed to start

Had to maneuver the clock different

The way time flying, it's seeming like Pops missing

**** get popped daily, it's making me talk different

Like ain't no more probably, I died if I'm not winning

I'm living where fear swallowed

Cuz if you living fearless, its probably really not growth

Hitting rock bottom to get the fuck out the pothole

I made it

Yeah **** I made it

Drop

I need to go the fuck to sleep