Sobering Thoughts From The Mondrian (feat. REASON)

Never had a hand out Lately seeing the hands Pain moving forward but fuck it we still advance God still in the plans Took 1500 nos that's nothin I'm on my rance That's real Look I can spot a user or greed straight off the glance Chicago in the summer no burner we took a chance I slid to give the city my energy and my plans LA been too vain for me Painfully been jaded took a toll put a strain on me insane to me A huge strain ironic can't see the gains on me Feel my time comin I need that shit here quicker Vodka with a spritzer networking to build figures Pour it out when they ain't lookin pour Henny I'm still Nigga This ghetto on me stained removing it kill my inner Hard to change the cards I'm dealt with my niggas still dealing I thought it'd be different I gave my heart to cure my sickness I thought it'd be different Followed traditions where I end up look Built my foundation with glass so y'all could see it clear Stones casted at it but from the inner let's keep it real Heavy winds there should help the sail but it sank the ship Gotta break my standards and ego for us to coexist Put it all in the music to heal my pain I relate to Tom Brady lost my family to the game I made niggas treat the story godly Jealousy forming from salt but I love it more than Lawry's Petty nigga I brought gifts to the pity parties It's nothing better than lettin em see you moving largely Soulfully ended in it Rode through the trenches with it great speed nigga This shit like gettin a ring from the 8th seed nigga You hear cheers I don't buy it that's a hate speech Nigga Look I see through a grotto I let my spirit follow Tried to let my love lead the way But that led to more expectations and sorrows It's heavy wallows Feelings swallowed Can't tell if it's real does this shit just make me hollow Can't come off my that hill unless the love slowly spiral Low range for change I turned pains to gains Love turned to strain That path turned terrain The doubt stayed to rain I drive that in my lane Tom Brady, lost my family to the game Nothing changed I thought it'd be different Need love there at my lowest I thought it'd be different Some bridges burned some is golden Heavy pressures on my shoulders Cuz while I sold records sold lyrics Sold message know my soul I never sold it Reas Soulfully ended in it Roll through the trenches Look I've been scared to settle down Part of the fear is worried bout settling Mistakes wish I could white em out Too proud of my melanin Ghost ride to the riches tints on it for my skeletons Cuz they been holding me down got a fear about tellin em I just keep em in that closet so I don't have to face it All this fabric on me It's like I'm tryna hide my fabrications It's like I'm in search of your validation It's like shit It's like I keep saying like because I can't commit to nothin Windows down while my speakers bumping Hope it air out all these deep discussions Not being honest with self could be yo saddest sickness Feel like I been wearing that mask better than Stanley Ipkiss Look I been carefully inchin But been constantly workin Constantly patient Constantly urgent I'm constantly trippin I know my flaws and all but constantly perfect Constantly steady But constantly nervous Constantly cool calm and collected On the inside I know I'm constantly Urkel Run in circles Been livin like gerbils Man fuck the love I need a girdle Tryna hold it together Lookin down I see my soul slowly rippin ask god to sew it together Reason