Running From My Past

Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

Got to smoke to this

Runnin' from my past

Father God, take me in your hands

Father God, take me to heaven

Walk with me every day

Gotta stop runnin

Lookin' at my past, like how long I'ma keep runnin'

Lookin' at my goals, like how long I'ma keep gunning

My daughter gettin' older and my clock is steady tickin'

From a boy into a man, gettin' kicked off dad insurance

Mama, I'm a strong man, I promise I'ma get it

Thank you for your love and conversation, now I get it

I ain't got it all figured out, but I still got God with me

Made a few mistakes, I feel like Donkey of the day

God, I feel so old, but still I'm young, I'm only 24

Shawty changed a **** life, and still I stay like what I'm on

People lookin' at me sideways, like I shoulda hit the highway

But my heart wouldn't let me do it, like I'm a sucker if I don't

Feel like Pops done gave up on tellin' me shit that I should know

He feel like when he talkin' to me, it's like he talkin' to a wall

Still, I hope he proud of all the things I've overcome

Just a lost young man, that never listened from the jump

I'm just a lost man, mama

But I'm a strong man, mama

Through thick and thin, you always had me in your wing, and now I'm here

All the demons and these pressures still within

Sometimes I feel I don't wanna live

I'm just a lost man, mama

But I'm a strong man, mama

Through thick and thin, you always had me in your wing, and now I'm here

All these demons and the pressure still within

Sometimes I feel I don't wanna live

Hi my name Camauri, born and raised in California

Where inflation hit the hardest, overpriced supermarkets

When I got my own apartment, barely fend for myself

Shawty put that pressure on me, I don't know what she on

Rent hittin', every month ain't got a dollar to my name

Stayin' down till I come up, is really startin' to sound lame

Always call my own plays in my timing always off

Smokin' vape to ease the pain, done developed me a caugh

I don't like it, but addiction gettin' deeper than the surface

Pray to God that this ain't where my story end, cause it ain't worth it

Mama, come and save me, cause I'm hurtin

All this prayin' that I'm doin' really workin

I know that for certain

And the show gotta go on closed curtains

I been gettin' to this chicken like it's churches

Don't go to churches

I been gettin' to this chicken like it's churches

I'm just a lost man, mama

But I'm a strong man, mama

Through thick and thin you always had me

In your wing and now I'm here

All the the demons and this pressure, still within

Sometimes I feel I'm just a lost man, mama

But I'm a strong man, mama

Through thick and thin you always had me

In your wing and now I'm here

R.D. Demons and their pressure, still within

Sometimes I feel I don't wanna live

My uncle Melvin like my brother and I love that boy to pieces

When we got into it, felt like we was never gon' be speakin

Know one thing about the mooce it's family over everything

Better patch it up and squash it over shit that we better than

Can't believe that woman steady speakin' down like that

Man, that shit had hurt my heart to hear her say something like that

Feel like God's still revealing all the signs

I'm just waitin' for my time, I know soon that I'ma shine

I been stuck up in this grind, peace is what I'm tryna find

Love will really make you blind if you can't read between the lines

Takin' time to be a father, wonder why I even bother

Talked to my heavenly father, been lookin' out for your sign

I pray you give me the time, a lot that's been on my mind

Sometimes I just wanna cry, fantasize about suicide

Got people that count on me, ain't really got time to die

Soul searchin' for the kid, been hard to find

I'm lost

I'm just a lost man, mama

But I'm a strong man, mama

Through thick and thin you always had me

In your wing and now I'm here

All these demons and this pressure, still within

Sometimes I feel I don't wanna live

I'm just a lost man, mama

But I'm a strong man, mama

Through thick and thin you always had me

In your wing and now I'm here

All these demons and this pressure, still within

Sometimes I feel I don't wanna live