Is It Gonna Be the Year?

I didn't go to college And I don't own a house I'm used, and I'm a failure And I fucked up somehow I've just been screaming to a microphone away from home When everyone I know gave up a long time ago What else am I supposed to do with my life? All that I've ever known are late night drives From Salt Lake Cite to Seattle to San Fran I hope I die in the back of a fucking van I wear my heart on my sleeve I know not everyone believes in me What will I be remembered for? These are questions I just can't ignore Is it gonna be the year that kills me? Or is it gonna be the one that saves me? 'Cause right now I'm suffocating I don't know if I will make it This year feels like hell I'm pretty sure I'm not doing so well Is it gonna be the year that kills me? Or is it gonna be the one that sets me free? When I was younger I was a mess, I must admit I said and did a lot of stupid and selfish things I never thought that it would last this long And neither did the others, that's why they're all gone When is it time to give it up? And how long is long enough? And when should I throw it in? 'Cause I don't wanna be a washed-up old man Is it gonna be the year that kills me? Or is it gonna be the one that saves me? 'Cause right now I'm suffocating I don't know if I will make it This year feels like hell I'm pretty sure I'm not doing so well Is it gonna be the year that kills me? Or is it gonna be the one that sets me free? Is it gonna be the year that kills me? Or is it gonna be the one that saves me? 'Cause right now I'm suffocating I don't know if I will make it Is it gonna be the year that kills me? Or is it gonna be the one that saves me? 'Cause right now I'm suffocating I don't know if I will make it This year feels like hell I'm pretty sure I'm not doing so well Is it gonna be the year that kills me? Or is it gonna be the one that sets me free?