At Peace

Hedge every bet Lick every boot Make every appeal Prostrate yourself to the killing machine To spare yourself from its wheels Better them than me Rolls so seductively off your tongue Your reckoning has begun In spite of endless war, extinction-level events Depredation and plague Every one of your ancestors survived to reproductive age The probability that you are even here is next to none Hey! No pressure everyone! When shit got dark, I had to face it alone There'd be no crying for help It's just how I'm wired I've had to figure shit out my whole life by myself I ain't saying it's cool, it's fucked up Truth be told, it's cost me a few friends But sometimes you must protect yourself Fucker, I'm resourceful, resilient I power through the waves of disappointment Maybe not quite thriving, but I'm buoyant I am at peace these days Give or take a fit of blinding rage I can't seem to shake the belief That there's a liminal state between Death and rebirth in which you and me Reconvene Oh yes, I'm really fun at parties Draw a dick on my face with a Sharpie Excuse me sir, this is an Arby's I am at peace I am at peace Though presently convulsed with grief I am at peace Some days I'm scared I'm going to die Or even worse: I might survive I try to keep these words in mind Nothing worth having comes without some kind of fight Gotta kick at the darkness until it bleeds daylight