Weight

Hello

Hello

Can anyone hear me

Why am I even here

I woke up

In the middle of a scream

A fly buzzing

On the edge of my tongue

Tiny black infinite

I think it was trying to tell me something

Maybe it was a prayer

Maybe it was static

I swallowed it whole

The walls are peeling

Like sunburned skin

And the shadows

They don't move anymore

They just stare

Waiting for me to flinch

I won't

Not this time

I'm glued to the floor

But the ceiling

Is laughing at me

Dripping its plaster tears

Into my coffee cup

I've been counting

The cracks in the mirror

But the glass never bleeds

The face that looks back

It isn't mine

It's a mask

Made of cigarette ash

Held together

With spit and regret

It's funny

They say the truth

Will set you free

But I've been chained to it for years

Freedom's a lie

It's a bird

With broken wings

Chirping a song

That no one hears

And it's funny

Sometimes I think

About the ocean

Not the water

Not the waves

Just the weight of it

Like it's all pressing down

A billion tiny hands

Crushing my chest

Do you feel it

Tell me you feel it

Woke up choking

In the middle of a scream

Fly on my tongue

Whispering schemes

Static prayers

In a broken line

Swallowed it down

Now it's all mine

Truth is a noose

I wear it tight

Freedom's ghost

I can't rewrite

Cracks in the glass

It won't reflect

Who I am

Just a reject

I'm the venom

And I'm the spit

I'm the reason

You just can't quit

I'm the shadow

I'm the stain

I'm the fracture

In your fucking brain