Maniac

Okay

I don't know how I'm gonna say this

I spoke of you too much but the record keeps replaying

The needle poking pressure as it breaks out the surface

I'm just trying to escape this

Trynna slip away from the cuffs, I know that I'm binded too

Being honest with my friends, cause I know who I'm lying to

With the anger in my parents face, I clearly recall

The blame is on you, but I feel like it's my fault

Don't mind the progress cause of all of these issues

And my mind turning to violence when the trauma continues

With the eyes on the line, when it comes to these venues

I'm losing the uphill battle and I am losing all my values

These demons drag me down as I'm loosing my grip

Cause I'm hearing your name, got me feeling like shit

A permanent scar on that you carved inside of my head

I'm trying to forget you

And I know that you'll break me again

I'm pretty sure I know how this ends

You got me feeling like I'm a maniac, oh

What do you want from me?

I can't believe you made me believe

Believing you I'm all that you need

You got me feeling like I'm a maniac, oh

What do you want from me?

What do you want from me?

I fucking miss the person that I used to be

So pure, bright, determined and so care free

And yet, you flipped the script, crumpled to bits and threw it at me

The fact that I didn't see it coming? embarrassing

But the part of the story that I'm pissed off the most

Is that I'll never get my justice, hold me into a choke

And all the people don't believe me when I speak out my truth

You ripped my inner child and you fucking killed my childhood

Stressing 'bout the future? Yea, I'm just about managing

Even with all of my friends, in the inside I'm perishing

I don't know where to turn, when these questions need answering

When my mind turns to a state into attack, I am panicking

But I know God is not answering, so the devil made amends

Insecure about my body, so blindfold me again

I will never heal the wounds that I need to attend to

I'm forever damaged, fuck

And I know that you'll break me again

I'm pretty sure I know how this ends (will I forever be like this?)

You got me feeling like I'm a maniac, oh

What do you want from me? (what do you want from me?)

I can't believe you made me believe

Believing you I'm all that you need (And I believed you)

You got me feeling like I'm a maniac, oh

What do you want from me?

What do you want from me?

A little messed up, a little insecure

Just 'cause the way you look

You take the air right out my lungs

Call me out, the same old story (I hate you)

I say no, but girl you know me (I really hate you)

I'm in love with the way you break my heart (I fucking hate you!)

And I know that you'll break me again

I'm pretty sure I know how this ends

You got me feeling like I'm a maniac, oh

What do you want from me?

I can't believe you made me believe

Believing you I'm all that you need

You got me feeling like I'm a maniac, oh

What do you want from me?

What do you want from me?