Palindrome

Weighing on my heart so long All my peace Already gone Livin' in this state of mind Focus on the deficit Always been a cynic in The darkest parts Behind my eyes Can't shake up this feeling It's been here so long I'm begging and pleading Just leave I wanna sing Like nothing else matters Leave me to be As free as a river I'm up and I'm down And right back around I'll just keep doing my own damn thing Regardless how Things are all turning out I've been doing this a third of my life New level Keep on writing songs to help me get by My demons Think they know me but they know the old guy So anxious Like a palindrome I'm back and forth on both sides Oh Chaos and struggle is all I've known Oh Forwards and backwards I keep moving on I wanna sing Like nothing else matters Leave me to be As free as a river I'm up and I'm down And right back around I'll just keep doing my own damn thing Regardless how Things are all turning out Ah Find peace with myself Ah I wanna dream Enjoy what I'm after Wanna believe Hold onto what really matters