Not Again

That day I wanted to be normal

Grab a cup of coffee and maybe grab a morsel

Swiping through my phone looking at my for you page

Walk over to me, dark hair, brown eyes, white nails"what would you like, sir?"

How do I respond? I'm in shock, I just stand still"Probably like a coffee, or something""Alright, perfect"

I can't do this all again

I need some time to myself

I can't lose another friend

But I give in way too easily

Can't control what's said, my mouth

How'd we end up at her house?

And she takes off her own blouse

How'd I end up in this spot?

Not Again I said no more

But I chose to leave the door

I should just stay on the floor

But I know myself too well

Maybe it's not what I want

But my needs have overcome

Wish I could just say enough

Is this what I have become?

Wake up in the morning with a blanket

Clothes scattered and we both are naked

Not drunk but my head still hurts though

Check time and I'm late for work, oh

Slide pants on but now she's waking up, and"Where you going?""I'm sorry, I'm late for work""oh"

Grab my keys, now I'm walking out the door, and

I don't look back, why'd I choose to do this?

I had done it all again

Why can't I control myself?

Should I check up on my health?

Cause is there something wrong with me?

Not Again I said no more

But I chose to leave the door

I should just stay on the floor

But I know myself too well

Maybe it's not what I want

But my needs have overcome

Wish I could just say enough

Is this what I have become?

Is this what I have become?