Black And Red (BnR)

Black and red inside of my mind

Been tryna rewind back to the times

Where i had that innocent lil smile

Step in my life to see what its like

Been stuck for a minute

I hate to admit it

But all ive been seeing

Is hatred and pride

Fuck all your bitchin

You aint seen your limits

You'll never be thriving

The way you survive

shit ive been bruised, still stuck with the winston blues

my mindset still smoking and swimmin in booze

them letters i write must be giving out clues

Her way of explaining her love is a muse

Entangled inside of her smile, its a ruse

Loving the way that i write its a noose

Potential of hanging myself to amuse

Making the way that i say things be true

Eternaly grateful to me and the dudes

Im paying my dues yall aint got a clue

Momma still proud of the sons she produced

Definitely not a dude you can screw

Raised by some wolves, we eating your crew

Only buffet that is servin is you

Won all my battles the scars are the proof

Not one single time that i felt like im losing

Im payin yall back for the shit that you do

Necessity caused me to rob all the fools

Grateful to say that i lived it all through

i walk through the valley of shadows with booze

musta forgotten the path to my freedom

still on a nine but a five is illegal

people been passing me i aint a free throw

remember the ways you would keep it deceitful

Black and red inside of my mind

Been tryna rewind back to the times

Where i had that innocent lil smile

Step in my life to see what its like

Been stuck for a minute

I hate to admit it

But all ive been seeing

Is hatred and pride

Fuck all your bitchin

You aint seen your limits

You'll never be thriving

The way you survive

Feel like i ran out of time

Stuck with a dime and a 9

Tryna survive in my mind

5 other times that i thrived

200 more that i failed but i tried

Multiply that by the times that i cried

And thats just the thoughts that i have in my mind

Of sticking that 9, and painting my mind

Goddamnit i hate it, i know where im headed

Lead in or leading it must be pathetic

Know in my head that im destined for greatness

Still with the pennies in pockets im pacing

I wanna live and provide for my family

I want the food on my plate to be plenty

I wanna see momma fly on vacation

I wanna retire dad, that'd be mazing

Too many struggles i lived, man i hate it

Never had chances, i made em all true

Always been working, i put in the effort

Been losing so much but im winning in truth

Round up applause, and ready the carpet

Imma be walking one day, thats a promise

Crawling to make it i love it regardless

Know i aint quitting im making it so its

Black and red inside of my mind

Been tryna rewind back to the times

Where i had that innocent lil smile

Step in my life to see what its like

Been stuck for a minute

I hate to admit it

But all ive been seeing

Is hatred and pride

Fuck all your bitchin

You aint seen your limits

You'll never be thriving

The way you survive