Play this when i die

I can't even be the person I want to be for real The person I want to be only lives in my head That person doesn't exist So I can keep dreaming and dreaming and dreaming and dreaming That inner version in my head will never appear and I know that for sure Yeah I'll be fine have you ever tried to heal man I tried Laying in my bed having dreams that I died No one came around I'm not even surprised (Huh Ahh) Do anyone love me like be for real? It ain't been no one calling I'm bout to bail In my head like every day and I've been thinking kill (I've been Thinking kill) Why everyone say I'm evil I'm a good seville I cannot wait to die so I can be alone in my coffin Shit I've been starting to cry to the point I do it often I was begging you to stay but you kept walking Force myself to eat I was out of place I stopped talking What's the point of fixing me if I'm always broken? I wanna see what's killing me can you cut me open? A lot of shit y'all cannot see but y'all say I'm chosen I try my best just not to leave but I get bad emotions When I die baby don't cry I'm okay I'm okay I'm okay I'm okay I'm okay I'll be fine have you ever tried to heal man I tried Laying in my bed having dreams that I died No one came around I'm not even surprised Do anyone love me like be for real It ain't been no one calling I'm bout to bail In my head like every day and I've been thinking kill Why everyone say I'm evil I'm a good seville I lost the best part of myself The part that never cried the part that never called for help The part that always felt good until it turned to hell The part that made me feel safe until it snapped and fell Do anyone love me like be for real? It ain't been no one calling I'm bout to bail In my head like every day and I've been thinking kill Why everyone say I'm evil I'm a good seville