Existing

Sitting here, goin, through them pictures, when shit was really different

At that time I felt alive, but right now I'm just existin

When this pain be so damn cripplin, lost my feelings and it shows

All the substance I've been usin' just to feel some damn emotion, and I'm hopin' this

Get to you, say it don't, you lyin' fasho

But right now my streams been up, my shit been good, I'm on a roll, and I'm smilin

Like I'm childish, cause I know my time approach, and I'm hopin' shit be live for my own tour

Before I'm gone

I know you changed, it's my fault, I know I played with your lil' heart

Ain't got no space to give my all, can't change my ways for no lil' girl

Put so much weight up on my shoulders, but I don't complain

And I'm gon' go hard, I never show em, I remain unfazed

No matter what, you know I'm here, Ima make that clear, when I go blow up outta here

Don't make it weird, and I need your love while we both here, and you know it's

Real

Tryna find a reason, other than money to get outta bed, smokin' to get outta my head

But I know some shit about to change

I envision finer things, parked outside the house

I let it out, won't let em' see me fazed, tryna sit back and articulate, been writin' songs

And rippin' pages, yeah, I been

Sitting here, goin, through them pictures, when shit was really different

At that time I felt alive, but right now I'm just existin' when this pain be so damn cripplin, lost my feelings

And it shows

All the substance I've been usin' just to feel some damn emotion, and I'm hopin' this

Get to you, say it don't, you lyin' fasho

But right now my streams been up, my shit been good, I'm on a roll, and I'm smilin

Like I'm childish

Cause I know my time approach, and I'm hopin' shit be live for my own tour

Before I'm gone