My Mind Ain't Always on My Side

I wake up in the morning with you gentle, next to me You roll over and you grab me in your sleep Don't take an Ivy degree to see how you feel about me Cause you tell me constantly But then the fear creeps in and my breathing is quick Second guess each glance and I start feeling sick And it sucks me in takes me out of this moment with you With you I still get scared sometimes Overwhelmed by insecurity oh what if you get bored of me And change your mind? I take a couple pills a day and do my best to meditate To quiet my mind Cause I love you, and I know you Say you're mine But my mind ain't always on my side I look into your eyes and I can tell you're falling deep Sometimes I even catch you talking about me in your sleep You wear your heart on your sleeve, can't keep a secret from me And you love me so honestly, earnestly Then suddenly The fear creeps in and my breathing is quick Second guess each glance and I start feeling sick And it sucks me in takes me out of this moment with you With you I still get scared sometimes Overwhelmed by insecurity oh what if you get bored of me And change your mind? I take a couple pills a day and do my best to meditate To quiet my mind Cause I love you, and I know you Say you're mine Why can't I let a good thing just be good? Why can't I trust your words like I know I should? Why can't I let go of the ifs and coulds? Can't I let a good thing just be good? Why can't I let a good thing just be good? Why can't I trust your words like I know I should? Why can't I let go of the ifs and coulds? Can't I let a good thing just be good? I still get scared sometimes Overwhelmed by insecurity oh what if you get bored of me And change your mind? I take a couple pills a day and do my best to meditate To quiet my mind Cause I love you, and I know you Say you're mine But my mind ain't always on my side Hate how my brain gets to spinning just when I'm steady feeling I beg for healing as I'm reeling praying to the ceiling You don't deserve to have to deal with all the shit I'm feeling You do it anyway You love me anyway