Living in Vain (Audiotree Live)

I push and push and push everyone away

Isolate myself, it's just easier that way

Seeking revenge on society and revenge on myself

Both have let me down more times than I can count

Dying to live, afraid to die

Dying to live, afraid to die

With thoughts of mortality I close my eyes

Searching for answers, living in vain

Life is torture and love is pain

Violence, vices, repeat the cycle

The things I use to feel okay for a while

Violence, vices, repeat the cycle

I just want to feel okay for a while

I'm a loner but I hate to be lonely

Pain inside my heart, but I can't let it control me

Feels like I'm stuck in reverse

Before every step forward I take 3 back first

Chip on my shoulder next to the weight of the world