Thoughts We Can't Reclaim

I know where it lies Kept from the light Buried on the shelf between Have Heart and Trophy Eyes Nothing but a placeholder While I threw away the golden years In search of merely getting by Doors I should have opened, I chose to keep shut Through intention, I knew it wouldn't last Now I'm forced to concede to a lesser degree These last few years mean nothing to me Mean nothing to me Drain yourself, reap the rewards The devil's hand's never been empty before I've been told, the end is sweet So tell me, why do I taste defeat? I am nothing like you are Bitterness in the aftermath I've witnessed no purpose It's not worth it I've decayed, myself to blame It's so self-conflicting, overwhelmed by false security I've decayed, my selfish ways It's so self-conflicting Bring me back to the day where we held light Fly, fall, find my foregone pride I won't let go of the mistakes I made back then To live with the choice I made Is this what you've been waiting for? Is this what you wanted? I'm in debt to what I could not show I'm not like you are Bitterness in the aftermath I'm not like you, and I never will be I've witnessed no purpose It's not worth it Abandoned and used, you fed me the fuse I'm burning bridges