For Myself, I'm Trying

I'm still coming home crying Smile through the teeth I would lie in Thought I was doing better I'm trying I'm trying Spiral again I'll just deny it This cycle ain't satisfying Thought I was doing better I'm trying I'm trying Sitting on the bathroom floor Feels like I've been here for hours Everything is water running through my hands Nothings blooming from artificial flowers You say you say Keep your chin up you will be fine You should take your own advice I'm just tryna ease my mind I'm just tryna buy time I'm just tryna do what's rights I'm just tryna ease my mind I'm still coming home crying Smile through the teeth I would lie in Thought I was doing better I'm trying I'm trying Spiral again I'll just deny it This cycle ain't satisfying Thought I was doing better I'm trying I'm trying Are you disappointed Or am I reading into it The look that you are giving me It sure ain't helping It's hard for me to remember Yeah I don't remember much And trying to gets expensive Yet I'm still bleeding the same blood Climb my way out of the deep end I've got pretty good at swimming I'm gasping when I jump in Am i drowning Here it comes again Yeah here it comes again Here it comes again You say you say Keep your chin you you will be fine You should take your own advice I'm just tryna ease my mind I'm just tryna buy time I'm just tryna do what's rights I'm just tryna ease my mind I'm still coming home crying Smile through the teeth I would lie in Thought I was doing better I'm trying I'm trying Spiral again I'll just deny it This cycle ain't satisfying Thought I was doing better I'm trying I'm trying