Hide Behind A Smile

People see me laugh and rip the mic device in style But there's a lot of pain within, it's been there for a while Most people see me laugh and rip the mic device in style But there's a lot of darkness that can hide behind a smile Most people see me laugh and rip the mic device in style But there's a lot of pain within, it's been there for a while Most people see me laugh and rip the mic device in style But there's a lot of darkness that can hide behind a smile Everything in life is breaking apart I fling darts from the brain that stays mentally scarred I got some thoughts that'll make a schizophrenic appalled I think I fucking lost myself like an identity card Thinking of mental health or else I'll probably end it I just grab a stack of records and some copies to blend it It got me defensive, I'm putting up the locks and the fences Close to a pro skater, how I dropped in the trenches One day I might snap and stand in front of your entrance With a bag of meth and a stress disorder like war veterans And there's a reason why a decent guy like me Who keeps the weed supply Indeed will make an evening out of starting beef tonight To all the people who've been doing me wrong To abandon me like my dad, fuck you, now I'm gone I'm glued to the bong, the booze, blunts, numerous songs I make while I'm on some shrooms too, I choose to be on What People see me laugh and rip the mic device in style But there's a lot of pain within, it's been there for a while Most people see me laugh and rip the mic device in style But there's a lot of darkness that can hide behind a smile Most people see me laugh and rip the mic device in style But there's a lot of pain within, it's been there for a while Most people see me laugh and rip the mic device in style But there's a lot of darkness that can hide behind a smile I'm at my wit's end and I'm getting close to ending this My brain seems to hate me, while I'm trying to be friends with it Attention deficit, mad, depressed and the rest of it Penmanship is my amphetamine and my therapist No meds, I'm like a nomad, follow my own path I smoke grass and write all my problems down in my notepad Now let me kick this flavor style, rock a show and take a bow I'm sick of waiting, and it's time promoters get acquainted now Ayo I spend my life creating, but it gave me shit for my patience And if you're not as wack as them, forget the hits and placements My shit's amazing, I kick a famous rapper's face in I should be able to just take that famous rapper's place in Ayo, it's hard to sleep, because the girl I need has passed me by She was different than the other bitches, man, I had to try Pardon me, while I stood by her and I hoped to fly She killed a part of me, but it was probably supposed to die People see me laugh and rip the mic device in style But there's a lot of pain within, it's been there for a while Most people see me laugh and rip the mic device in style But there's a lot of darkness that can hide behind a smile Most people see me laugh and rip the mic device in style But there's a lot of pain within, it's been there for a while Most people see me laugh and rip the mic device in style But there's a lot of darkness that can hide behind a smile