PTSD

I am wide awake

Staring at your face and

I'm wondering if you're safe

I'm wondering if it's fake

And my heart is racing

Afraid of what you hide

Afraid of ways you lie and

Afraid of what I'll find

Afraid I'll spend my life

Crying when I'm smiling

Can't tell if I love you or

I'm sleeping with the enemy

Some days I can't tell my intuition

From anxiety

I'm too scared to tell you

Cause what if you get fed up and leave

Some days I can't tell my paranoia

From PTSD

PTSD PTSD

Some days I can't tell my paranoia

From PTSD

PTSD PTSD

Some days I can't tell my paranoia

From PTSD

I'm good I'm good okay?

My armor's suffocating

I guess it comes in waves

I get used to the ache

But it's asphyxiating

Can't tell if I love you

Or I'm sleeping with the enemy

Some days I can't tell my intuition

From anxiety

I'm too scared to tell you

Cause what if you get fed up and leave

Some days I can't tell my paranoia

From PTSD

PTSD PTSD

Some days I can't tell my paranoia

From PTSD

PTSD PTSD

Some days I can't tell my paranoia

From PTSD

I'm just a sad girl

Stacking up my money

I'm doing big things cause

My mama didn't want me

I try to be a sain

So I'm worthy of affection

But I'm still afraid

Cause love is a murder weapon

Some days I get so damn lonely

Cause everybody's fake

I trust the only one who knows me

Cause no one else feels safe

PTSD PTSD

Some days I can't tell my paranoia

From PTSD

PTSD PTSD

Some days I can't tell my paranoia

From PTSD

I'm just a sad girl

Stacking up my money

I'm doing big things cause

My mama didn't want me

I try to be a saint

So I'm worthy of affection

But I'm still afraid

Cause love is a murder weapon