Salt In The Wound

Told mum I'll be okay, hoping that she don't know

Prescription pills in my own home, just to shut eyes on my pillow

They slept on me and it felt like a low blow

I bagged him, rapping under the influence

They preeing me on the low low

Pride's been kicking arse, she left so easy, I couldn't say "Don't go"

Silly girls keep hitting me up

Try climbing the ladder and use me to pole vault

Been a month and I ain't had a drink, and it ain't solved nothing, I still feel below low

Clocked it, I didn't do much, just stuck to my guns, no blogs, no promo

All I need is a mic and a YouTube beat, and spin I'll any man in Miloco

But for now, fuck that subject, I'll die before I can trust them

Started crying after we done stuff, and now I'm thinking done something to upset

I wanted to impress Pops, but every other a day, I did something preposterous

Maybe one day, I'll tell him my problems

Shit's weighing on my conscience

Till I get everything under the sun, I can't be over the moon

When I put my soul in a tune, it feels like rubbing more salt in the wound

All the shit that I focus through, in the back of whip with a soulless yout

Don't promise me shit I can hold you to

Then shout me like link up overdue

'Cause I'm a cool guy till I catch your words and your actions matching wrong

More-time, I only see bro in passing, he wanna reload the batch then gone

Mercedes Benz everyday in the ends, them boy doing everything back to front

He clocked me, looked in eyes and left

That's how I know he only came back to front

I used to cater to them idiot guys, no shame, I did it for me this time

Lost myself, everyone lost interest, asking God for the reasons why

Next thing I'm in line at CEX and selling my PS5

Alone in the dark in the evening times

Still get flashbacks from my previous life

Still think 'bout my ex one, probably my best one

Sending me nudes in the restaurant, I replied like, "You're gonna get some"

I don't two step, get stepped on, can't go backwards, me, I'm too headstrong

I got one in the chamber for all the of the times that I ever got slept on

Slept on me song, when I blow, I'm returning the favour

It never occurred to me earlier, pain helped me learn how to hurdle a danger

She posting her time of a 5K run, hoping for personal trainer

I can't turn a ho to homebody, I only made it worse tryna save her

Perving on me when I get out the shower, close the curtains, disturbing the neighbours

Savour the moment, soon I'll be back on the pavement circling paper

SMS from bae like, "What you prefer me in? Curly or straighter?"

Not right now, I'm working a way on my purpose, they want me burn into failure

I remember sinking feeling first time that I got into my head

I'm tryna get out of it ,but now I'm thinking about thinking again

Time goes by in the blink of an eye, that's why I been winking at death

I drink to the forget the fact, I drink to forget the fact, I, in fact

Lemme not get get into it yet

My personal got a ring to it, I know why they don't sing to it yet

I been airing my business out in the ink and I ain't got a pinch of regret

Don't push me, I tinker on the edge, can't cry 'cause I did it for less

Fuck, man, I'm sinking again

Listen, I opened the cabinet, shaking a empty pot for a fix, been itching again

Distro stopped pitching again, bump cab, now I'm back in the Citroen again

Now I'm on good terms with my pops, and we're tryna fix what it hasn't been said

When the situation start switching again, up and down, my mood shifting again

Fans think I'm depressed they probably right, I can't sleep in the night, eyes twitching again

Fuck it, I'm night nurse drinking again, sick in the head, I been picturing death

I put all the pain from my life in the lines, they online bitching again

There's no shortcuts in this tedious grind, I wish I could skip to the end

How many man never progressed cause they can't accept when they incorrect?

My armour ain't had in chink in yet, can't ever regret the things I said

It flips on it's head when it comes to you though

Sit on the edge, I know that I'm too close

That's my cue though, when I jump, they'll give me my kudos