Closure, Pt. 3

Oh, it's all nothing Always say it's nothing Keep on holding something Make it so damn hard to Look in your eyes See the pain that's inside them Oh, boy, fifty Look, I'd be lying if I said that I'm okay Regrets about the past and I'm stressed about today Cause I know that I'm broken I'm just trying to find a way Even though I'm holding on I've been questioning my strength Look, I know I'm different I just wanna feel accepted I do it to myself My mental health has been neglected I'm careless with my love Even though I should protect it I've been lying about my problems When I know I should address it I keep it to myself Cause I'm afraid of being judged I was drinking for the pain But now I do it just because I tell them it's depression But it's all of the above We convince ourselves it's real When we know it isn't love I know it's hard to swallow But we gotta face the truth I drank away the pain Cause I was trying to make it through I've been dealing with my demons I've been trying to play it cool I've been suffering inside When they think I'm making moves How the fuck they did me wrong But I'm the one that takes the blame They gon' put it all on you When it takes two to play the game See, I thought that I recovered But I know I ain't the same God done told me to forgive you And that's why I hated praying But I'm, I'm on my knees And I've been begging him to heal me I'm covered in my sins My heart and soul is getting filthy The bottle made me numb To all the pain that I was feeling They just know me for my flaws It's only God that knows the real me They assassinate me They try to say that I'm a monster I was poisoned by her love So I went sober when I lost her Her love was like the ocean Made me drown inside the water Til this day I still want closure Even though I shouldn't bother You lying to yourself I know you tell them I was wrong You can paint the perfect picture Till they see how it was drawn You can put the blame on me But it was you that broke the bond You the one that fucked it up You know the reason why I'm gone I'll let you tell it though I hope it gives you peace of mind Tell them I was toxic Narcissistic with an evil side Make me out to be the villain If that helps you sleep at night You thought the grass was greener And I'm glad you finally see it's dry Like all them tears that I was shedding On my pillowcase You heartless piece of shit Yeah, I hope that makes you feel the way You never gave a fuck But I just hope you know I'm still okay It's sad to say you can't admit I loved you in the realest way Let's make a toast to it for what it's worth Like a rose on fire There's still beauty in it when it burns You said I did you wrong Til this day you know you did me worse Your love was like a gift But deep inside there was a hidden curse The love is gone but all the memories won't Disappear Sometimes you just gotta let them go And you can't interfere Interfere with all the things that they Decide to do Cause what's the point of making promises If they gon' lie to you I'll let you tell the lies But I'ma be the one that tells the truth You said your love was real But you ain't feel the way I feel for you I saw you as an angel But you made me go through hell for you I gave you everything I did the shit that no one else would do No matter where you look You'll never find a better me I wish that I could tell you to your face But I'll just let it be It hurts to let you go But I'll just numb it with this Hennessy I guess that they were right It's only real if you can set it free