Knife In Hand

Knife in hand

Hear my heartbeat pounding as hard as it can

Try to stop me like the last time but you can't

Swear to God this isn't happening again

No, not again

In bed

Kept awake by all the noise inside my head

I could do that overdue shit but instead

I'll just cry and let my spirit fill with dread

I should be dead, and yet I'm still alive

It's been too long a day for me to sleep tonight

Is this insomnia or punishment from high

I feel an urge to leave my whole damn life behind

I don't know why

I guess it's fine

I'll say it's all okay to keep it off your mind

How I'm secluded wasting hours of my time

Not even doing shit to justify this lie

I might as well just cry

Who do I seek out to bring me out of the darkness that I wallow in (It's my time)

To feed off for my need of this catharsis, oh I swallow it (Close my eyes)

Don't beat around the bush, you got this far, it's come to push and shove (My best try)

To get you up to somewhere you are loved, if you're lucky (Do is cry)

(Back to a time when)

(I lost my will but chose to find it)

(Seek out the old me's ancient guidance)

(Shame that he's buried and divided)

Flash back to a time when

I lost my will but chose to find it

Seek out the old me's ancient guidance

Shame that he's buried and divided

Who do I seek out to bring me out of the darkness that I wallow in

To feed off for my need of this catharsis, oh I swallow it

Don't beat around the bush, you got this far, it's come to push and shove

To get you up to somewhere you are loved, if you're lucky

Stop being so dramatic when the clock is saying it's my time

To see what lies behind the darkness when I close my eyes

I'll grab the cursed thing and hold my breath at my best try

To take the pain away cuz all that I can do is cry