Midwest's Best

Everyone here is leaving or dying The curse of this place makes me wanna keep driving But every road that I take leads me home To my dogs in the front yard and you on the porch Fucked up my grades, now I can't go to college Fucked up my life when you kissed me in your armchair I pulled away, ran out the door, you screamed I am the biggest mess that you have ever seen And it's true I don't know how to deal with all this bullshit This nightmare that I'm living in What if you aren't impressed by the best I have? I'm a collection of the people and the places that Gave me a home, broke all my bones, told me I'm ready My mother's rage, my father's pain, hereditary When did we go from growing up to growing old? I'm a progression of all of the things that came before Live wire, head on fire, my heart beats out of my chest Answer me, will I ever be more than Midwest's best? Winter here feels like hell frozen over And I've forgotten it makes it feel colder You put your arm around me and we talked about how All of our friends are having babies or crashing out You joke and say you're always on my team It made me laugh and took me back to 2017 When we were kids, it wasn't us versus them And things are different now, but were they better then? I don't know Maybe the answer is blowing in the wind? I'm laughing like a kid again What if you aren't impressed by the best I have? I'm a collection of the people and the places that Gave me a home, broke all my bones, told me I'm ready My mother's rage, my father's pain, hereditary When did we go from growing up to growing old? I'm a progression of all of the things that came before Live wire, head on fire, my heart beats out of my chest Answer me, will I ever be- I am so sick and tired of all these goddamn fires that I Started So let it all burn down, 'cause I'm happy now But What if you aren't impressed by the best I have? Live wire, head on fire, my heart beats out of my chest Dare to be seen, wanna scream, god, I'm such a mess Answer me, will I ever be- Answer me, will I ever be more than Midwest's best?