2016

Back in 2016 everything was pretty

I really had a drive I really loved my life

Then came 2018 shit started getting heavy

My long sleeves couldn't cover up the pain that I was feeling

Then came 2020 made a deal with the devil

He put me onto drugs and it helped the pain a little

And then I fell in love with these damn drugs

I called out to God can you help me sober up

21 to 22 felt like there's a zombie that was walking in my shoes

I'm playing a game that I'm destined to lose

All of the shame didn't know what to do

Then in 2023 I moved out to the city the city of angels

That shit was amazing but I couldn't stop drinking

Cutting and bleeding

I knew I had to go before I started sinking

2024 I hit the road back home It's time to sober up

It's time to see my mom It's time to see my friends

And tell them I was wrong I need to make amends with myself

To try to move on

Now I'm halfway through this year still in fear

I thought that I'd feel better I thought I could remember when

I was in 2016 when everything in life was so pretty

I guess this is how time goes

I guess this is my life oh

I can't stop pouring cups

I can't seem to sober up

I can't seem to kick the drugs

I can't seem to give a fuck