The Code

People say they're loyal to the core well I had bad apples that I had to give back

Sometimes I gotta sit down and think back

Bout all the times I rode for bro and not a single time he ever rid back

Someone tell me how am I meant to forgive that

Be careful what you say with your tongue cuz people always get their lick back

But I was too naive to ever think that

Its all fun and games being bad till the opps came and slid back

I done my dirt so how could I complain if he wants his back

But nowadays I just zone on my own

It's go hard or go harder cuz there's no going home

That's what Flex used to say when he would call up my phone

I wonder if he'd still be proud of me now that I'm grown

And Ive done some evil things that i cannot atone

But i'd be lying if i said it hasn't weighed on my dome

Its hard to write your future when you past is carved into stone

Especially when your trauma follows everywhere that you roam

You don't know how it feels to go to sleep with your misses at night no lights and the terrors starts to kick in

Every dreams a shooting or a dipping

But you ain't got the guts to say a word because youre scared that she'll start tripping

I wanna let her in but i don't wanna be burden

I just hope she turns a blind eye when she notices in fibbing

She wants to hold my hand in rain

But baby you can't take a painkiller for someone else's migraine

Cuz I'm from brumtown the city of guns where they'll spray every last single round till it clinks

Where we don't play fair, we don't care what you think

Because revenge tastes sweeter when the attitude stinks

It's an eye for a soul when you come from the brinks

So the wrong look can really end your life in a glimpse

We cant afford to live on the blink

Get it done in a nod and a wink

Cuz round here there's no such thing as an enlightenment

We ain't had shit we had to take our own entitlement

I just pray I see the age of retirement

Cuz I'm my moms son but I'm a product of environments

That never beat the odds but by all means imma make it

And that's a promise, this ain't up for no debating

Id rather die on a vow before i break it

Rise to every trial and obstacle and face it

So no matter my senses stay heightened

Always gotta keep a watch on family friends and spouses

You know the saying duppy know who fi frighten

Same way thieves don't rob empty houses

So be aware your closest brother could be waiting for your life to erode

But jealousy will kill his peace and all the truth will unfold

From the corners to the streets, from the blocks to the road

Until i take my last breath imma stick to the code