Kick The Bucket

I've returned to eternal voids

Breaking comms

Depriving joy

It's a burden

This love to hate

When shit gets real

Can't reciprocate

Its powerful

This lack of woe

The returning foe that the mirror tows

Im witnessing the thought of calm

It makes me sick, bring in the bomb

I will repel the path to my excel

I will destroy all I love and that I've held

I will bring defamation to my wins and trophies

I'll self destruct upon the thought you could love me

I've been playing games

To avoid what could be real

I been jotting down all the truth within the feels

I've been counting down all the ways to kick the bucket

I beg for release, but until then

Fuck it.

As the pressure builds

And the void expands

Begging for fill

The endless hole within my soul

I'll play the part and kill the role

I'll study the norm and replicate

Recite my lines and penetrate

Expectations, false sensations

That mimic plastic celebrations

We'll bring the promise

Just to defy it

We'll bring trust and hope

Just to pull back and deny it

The doubt and disbelief

Arrive like fun surprises

The laughter of deceit echoes

The volume rises

I approach it with an ominous glow

With an air of arrogance in tow

There is only one way to go

We must destroy, restart the show

This self defense habitual

Must tumble down and be forgotten

When altered state's perpetual

These forged connections soon turn rotten

I've been playing games

To avoid what could be real

I been jotting down all the truth within the feels

I've been counting down all the ways to kick the bucket

I beg for release, but until then

Fuck it.