Flooded Thoughts

There is nothing in this world that I wouldn't do for Julie

In this world

In the middle of the river running through my thoughts

Thinking bout' my past life, learning bout' the path I chose

Angry in this parking lot, I'm exposed

Raining and it will not end, drenching up my only clothes

And it's bout' to flood again, water seeping through the cracks

Filling up my brokenness, dreading that this day would come

Crying in the ocean mist, breaking through the broken glass

Punching through it with my fist, ending it wont end a thing

Sharded glass upon my wrist, exit now I run the risk

Now I'm stuck up in this shit, if I end it now

Won't get to talk to God, pray repent

Calling on the Lord for my advice, please drop a hint

Anything for now would save my life, please let me in

I'm trying and crying, feel like I've been dying inside

But I shield it with pride, I'm relying on miracles

Blessings, it all coincide, I will bog it all down

Just to know that I tried

Aim high, I can still breathe, wash the past out

Survive, **** proceed, choose another route

Stagnant, sink or swim, I will never pass out

Last two dollars in this bitch, I'ma cash out

Aim high, I can still breathe, wash the past out

Survive, **** proceed, choose another route

Stagnant, sink or swim, I will never pass out

Last two dollars in this bitch, I'ma cash out

I'm dead to the earth, and death is all around me

See society is sickness, and pandemic life surround me

As I gasp for air, I'm drowning, and the blood of God I'm downing

As these idiots, they push me and they wonder why I'm frowning

The rage will be their downfall, the Antichrist is crowning

See the birth of all this ignorance, I'm watching Satan smiling

In my heart is pure, they throw a brick, a rock, a stick, they wildin

See the devil lurk upon the weak, yet no one see him prowling

And the wolves are out to get me, they not far, I hear them howling

As the Lord prepare me for the war, I rep His name so proudly

All the racist, biggots Satanist, antagonist, they bound me

And the angels loosen all my chains, and that's the way they found me

I'm trying and crying, feel like I've been dying inside

But I shield it with pride, I'm relying on miracles, blessings

It all coincide, I will bog it all down, just to know that I tried

Aim high, I can still breathe, wash the pass out

Survive, ****, proceed, choose another route

Stagnant, sink or swim, I will never pass out

Last two dollars in this bitch, Imma cash out

Aim high, I can still breathe, wash the pass out

Survive, ****, proceed, choose another route

Stagnant, sink or swim, I will never pass out

Last two dollars in this bitch, Imma cash out

I'm just tryna understand

Is this a part of God's plan for me

For me

Want this pain to go away

And survive another day, please help me

Help me

I'm struggling, dying inside

Take a step back and I swallow my pride

Got to keep moving, I'm moving, I'm moving

Trying to win, but I feel like I'm losing

Can't find my way, stressed, lost, and alone

In this world, am I on my own

I remain strong in the midst of it all

I'll carry on even if I should fall

So tell me, am I all alone

Cause I'm feeling all alone

I guess I'm really all alone

Whoa

In this world

In this world

In this world