Phantom Loss

Phantom loss

Holding on, Holding strong

Keep control

Can't let go

It's a lot, but of what

You don't know

Etched out my wishes

Nail to the wall

Phantom loss

Keeps you lost, looking good

Death is slow

Morning lost

On the drop of something

You claim

Looking out

At the kids as they all

Run & play

Escaping a feeling

Caught on the way

It's a joke

How we hope it'll just

Go away

If it's all the same

I've lost concern

And in many ways

You've had your turn

And my mind will keep eating

At something dismissed into nothing

If it has its way

And I'm sure next time

Will be just the same

Phantom loss

Laying down, spaced out

In the back seat

Happy smiles

Bloody eyes

Nothing really to see

Stretched out the seconds

Slingshot away

Phantom loss

On your knees

Submissive & safe

If it's all the same

I've lost concern

And in many ways

You've had your turn

And my mind will keep eating

At something dismissed into nothing

If it has its way

And I'm sure next time

Will be just the same

Phantom loss

Lay me down, Knock me out

Go to sleep

All this time

Bleeding out It is me

Now I see

Fixed on the seconds

Time ticks away

Phantom loss

I am done, let me go

Leave me be