The One Who Did It First

I don't wanna be friends at all You won't be here when I fall I'm just gettin' stoned Old me would be stoked I don't fall in love like I did all those years ago Jaded, she's a gem, but she's no lil' ghost I'm all outta hope But you already know that about me All these memories surround me I'm passionate, but baby doll I learned to numb, now I don't feel at all I don't wanna be friends at all You won't be here when I fall Let me talk about my life while I avoid all conversations I can't write like back in '21 with all those aspirations I met every single hero, one had even helped me tour I had never felt the love that I had felt from friends before But success and doin well were not synonymous, it's true I don't ever feel myself unless I'm sittin' close to you Unless I'm sittin' next to her, the girl that broke my heart The one who did it first