Pulled Back by the Rain

I told someone today

I've been pulled back by the rain

Into patterns that I've been

Avoiding since the winter came

When I got off the phone

And I found myself alone

In the room that I once loved

And I found it's not enough anymore

And then I thought to wonder

If I really wanna make

Some kind of bigger change

Do I need to move away?

Do I need to find a place

Where I can finally escape

All the problems that I've made?

Or must I live with pain?

Somebody once told me

That there's a beast we cannot see

And he lives inside us all

He's the part of us that falls apart

And when there is a fire

You can feel his deep desire

For the touch of someone else

For the love you never felt in your heart

And then you have to wonder

If I really wanna make

Some kind of bigger change

Do I need to move away?

Do I need to find a place

Where I can finally escape

All the problems that I've made?

Or must I live with pain?

When I walk down the street

Every person that I meet

Isn't looking straight at me

I can see a longing in their eyes

And it makes me feel alone

When I realize I only

Wanted you to be my friend

But the beast within was not so wise

And it never thought to wonder

If I really wanna make

Some kind of bigger change

Do I need to move away?

Do I need to find a place

Where I can finally escape

All the problems that I've made?

Or must I live with pain?