Don't Miss Out

Many things arrived in the months that followed Attachment theory made sense But it was hard to swallow Of course grief arrived earliest Took all the space it needs Demanded my patience I swam, I swam so much I walked, I walked all night I climbed, I paddled I moved until I felt settled Couldn't eat for the first time Couldn't think, I was on fire Only thing I could do right Was to stay with the feeling and not fight Fighting hard to have you back was not the answer Forcing your face out of my head was not the answer All those miserable dates I had were not the answer Getting fucked by the Manhattan skyline was not the answer Baby it sucked but it brought me the answers Never have I felt true joy before I met this grief Never have I felt my body so real before I saw you leave Grief is the price of love I'm not ashamed anymore of how I cried That first month It took courage to be that raw Next to your indifference But my love, I don't need to erase you I don't even know what they mean when they say I should move on I don't need eternal sunshine or a spotless mind I'm just thankful for having loved And having been loved back so deep It changed everything I'd do it again All over again Fighting hard to have you back was not the answer Forcing your smile out of my head was not the answer Staying in touch with you was not the answer It was terrible how you would take a whole day before you answered Baby it sucked but it brought me the answers Never have I felt anything before I met this grief Never have I felt my body so real before I saw you leave Don't miss out Book right now For the journey of a lifetime, lifetime A stolen week A distant beach For miles and miles You kiss my neck My eyes your lake It's who we are It's what we're made of In the depths of my dark brown gaze And you are You are You are You are Here Here And me I'm here I'm here