a heart you didn't break

My heart is hurt again And I don't know what to say Cause You know I ain't prayed in days But all the crying ain't working Tears all on my pillow case Don't seem to fix anything Lord would You come again, but First I'm so sorry I don't mean to be so distant But I be Fighting back trauma from someone that hurt me And I know it's not your fault And my mind knows you love me But for some reason My heart is so stubborn I built these walls Now they're causing destruction Cause all that they do Is keep me away from You But You've been way too good And You lead me through All of my mountains and my valleys too Even though You didn't hurt me that day God would You come heal my heart anyway Cause I wanna know what it's like to be loved And to believe it even at my worst I know it's not you that's causing me pain But God would you heal a heart you didn't break I know You told me not to fall in love with him And I know now I probably should have listened But You know how hard it is not to love The people we shouldn't just look at us And You called it Yeah, he broke my heart now I'm Feeling guarded Even in our quiet time I wish I didn't have to say it But for his mistakes You're the one paying I'm so sorry I don't mean to be so distant But I be Fighting back trauma from someone that hurt me And I know it's not Your fault And my mind knows you love me But for some reason My heart is so stubborn I built these walls Now they're causing destruction Cause all that they do Is keep me away from This is my cry out the Lord, like I want to believe that you love me I'm gonna cry I've had such a horrible day today And, like, I don't know It's just been a really hard season And I'm trying so hard to just, like Believe that God loves me I know that He does, but it's just been so tough And I know where it stems from and it frustrates me cause there's nothing I can do about, like What I've gone through And so it's really, like This song genuinely is My truest prayer