i only want what i can't have!!!

[Verse 1]

Retrace my steps

Collapse my thoughts

I’ll meet you right back

Where we started

Thought you’d be here

But you’re still

Trapped in my apartment

And I’m outside

Freezing in the rain

Feels like you’ve been gone

For days and I'm

Sick of bottling emotions

Automated coping this

Chemical erosion

On my skin

Burning through the moment

God why am I hoping?

God what am I hoping for?

[Pre-Chorus]

Don’t wanna want you

Like I want you but I want you and I

Don’t know why I can’t feel a thing

If it’s not for you, maybe

One kiss won’t hurt?

We’ll forget that you’re with her

Know we shouldn’t but I’m selfish

Been so long since I’ve felt

(shit)

[Chorus]

We’ll write it off as

A platonic interaction

I’ll be your mistake

You’ll be the love

Of my fucking life!

Turn down the lights again

It feels so good to feel again

Maybe I love you? or

I only want what I can’t-I can’t–

No need to talk

It’s a platonic interaction

I’ll be your mistake

You’ll be the love

Of my fucking life!

Cut off my oxygen

Anything to feel again but

Don’t say you love me cause

I only want what I can’t have!

[Verse 2]

What’s left to say?

Won’t speak my thoughts cause

You’ll read 'em anyway &

We live in different states

I’ll overstay my welcome

Should’ve left at 2 am

Now it’s 6 am instead &

I’m lying-lying-lying in your (bed)

Filling her space for the night

(Am I ruining your?)

I hate that I don’t even mind

(Am I ruining your life?)

Filling her space for the night

(Am I ruining?)

I hate that I don’t even mind

Am I ruining your life?

[Pre-Chorus]

Don’t wanna want you

Like I want you but I want you and I

Don’t know why I can’t feel a thing

If it’s not for you-for you–

One kiss won’t hurt?

We’ll forget that you’re with her

No wait, we should get some sleep instead

Get-get-get some sleep instead

[Bridge]

Am I?

Am I?

Am I ruining?

Am I?

Am I ruining?

Fall in love?

Am I ruining?

[Chorus]

We’ll write it off as

A platonic interaction

I’ll be your mistake

You’ll be the love

Of my fucking life!

Turn down the lights again

It feels so good to feel again

Maybe I love you?

Or I only want what I can’t-can’t-can’t–

I only want what I can’t–

[Outro: han.irl & (Ryan Hall)]

I know it just hit me just now

I only want what I can’t

(It’s so weird, it’s so fucking weird

While you’re playing an instrument too) yeah

(Hannah what the fuck)

We’ll write it off as a platonic interaction

My brain isn’t working

(Um, I don’t know bro

I just wanna sit here for a sec)

I only want what I can’t