Constant Clatter

I guard myself too well

So good others can't tell

Puckered up in a seashell

In deep waters

It ain't that I'm a shy kid

In fact it's people that unscrew my lid

It's my own brain that I must rid

This constant clatter

With my gut I tend to roll

Looking for that next swimming hole

Making sure my pieces fold

Into a neat package

But it's my blessing and it's my curse

No matter what, I must disperse

When the gettings good, I make it worse

A ship looking for wreckage

I wish I could just sit and watch

I wish I could just sit and watch the rain fall

I wish I could just sit and watch the world unfold

I wish I could just sit and watch the world fall around me

If life's a story then who's it for

Do we build a house just to close the door

This can't be it there must be more

Beneath the surface

This puncture wound is hard to hide

It stays infected no matter what I try

But I can't stop even if I die

So don't you tell me it was worthless

I'm damn good at burying myself underground

Maybe I like living where I can't be found

Maybe I like the challenge of coming back around

But I should've been a gopher

How do I put this into words

I speak for me not the human herds

When life boils up I gain back my nerve

To face the fear all over again

I wish I could just sit and watch

I wish I could just sit and watch the rain fall

I wish I could just sit and watch the world unfold

I wish I could just sit and watch the world fall around me