Breaking In Reverse

I'm not initiating anything But I won't stop it if you start There's a million black dogs in my head And they're fighting with my heart You put your hand upon my shoulders You said you weren't sure if it was the light But you told me that I am beautiful And then you told me that it wasn't right Or maybe I'm too quick at replying When you tell me what you're doing for tea And I know exactly what I'm doing 'Cause it's exactly what you're doing to me And I told you I'm writing again And you know exactly what it's about Two hearts breaking in reverse Don't ask me why I'm smiling 'Cause there's just so much I could say to you Like there's a life of wet walking boots ahead If we could just see this bit through So if I seem a little colder It's 'cause I'm terrified of melting away Before I can serve myself on a platter And all that matters is that judgement day And it's too painful going backwards So I'll invite myself over yours for tea And I know exactly what I'm doing 'Cause it's exactly what you're doing to me And I told you I'm writing again And you know exactly what it's about Two souls aching Two lips shaking, two eyes waking The time it's taking, it's painstaking Two hearts breaking in reverse