It's Not for Me Anymore

When I was seventeen,

Hiding with him in a parked car,

We were charting out new lands

Never seen in our hearts.

Once a man was in love with me

And then another and another.

But that was years ago

And now I've been here alone forever.

What's been has been

And it's gone for sure.

I used to know love,

But it's not for me anymore.

In my life I've seen some things

That most men can't speak about.

I've watched my best friend die

And fires that burned my house down.

Once I went to therapy

And then a doctor and a lawyer.

They weren't the only ones who raped me,

Too many now to even bother.

What's been has been

And it's gone for sure.

I used to know love,

But it's not for me anymore.

In time you too will see

That we are all destined to fail.

If you think you're truly happy,

Just give it time, that ship too will sail.

Once I thought life was worth living,

But now I'm sure that I know better.

You can't travel this road alone,

You can't get on without a partner.

What's been has been

And it's gone for sure.

I used to know love,

But it's not for me anymore.

Once I was bound to my feelings

And all the memories I'd gathered.

But that was years ago

And I've left them out on the road in tatters.

What's been has been

And it's gone for sure.

I used to know life,

But it's not for me anymore,

Anymore, anymore, anymore.

What's been has been.

No one's at my door.

I used to know life,

But it's not for me anymore.