F****d Up

What if I feel more like myself when I'm fucked up What if I feel like just this life is not enough What if I don't wake up What if it just breaks up What if I feel more like myself when I'm fucked up What if it bars in the back of cars and the train like church What if it's meaning every word and nothing hurts Cigarettes and sailors Prayer in the lasers What if I feel more like myself when I'm fucked up